Tuesday, September 30, 2008

36 weeks!!!

So, I've made it to full term, which we weren't sure if we could expect. I know, I want to get at least one more week out of my pregnancy, but today marks a HUGE relief on myself. I have worked HARD to keep this little guy in, and while I know the reward will be worth it in the end---UGH! He better be perfect when he comes out (and you know he will be).

So I come off my meds today (the Terbutaline and the Procardia). So I'll be contracting. I'm scared that Danny works an hour away, but I have four friends on my "labor call list" so I'm not tooooo worried about it. I know I'll get to the hospital one way or another. I'm all packed up and ready to go, as is Linds and Dan, so we are SET. I just need someone to feed my fish---any takers?

I had that SAME reaction yesterday as I did on Sunday. It is really scaring me. So I called the doctor's office and got the nurse answering machine before I passed out this time. I got awoken by a call an hour and a half later. Basically what we think is happening is that the Glyburide is making my sugars go down so much that I'm having hypoglycemia and I don't have enough sugars, so I get the shakes, the sweats and I pass out. Not so good when you have a four year old hanging out by herself. She watched a movie in my room while I slept it off, and got me some food in my system after I woke up and was too weak to even attempt the stairs. I'm telling you, I have the world's greatest daughter. Seriously.

So, wish me luck...I can't wait to meet this lil guy!

Monday, September 29, 2008

Sleepless in G-ville

The further along I get, the crappier I feel, so I have a super hard time getting on the computer and blogging. But, I can not sleep...I've been up since 6am, doing what my grandmother calls "solving the world's problems". It doesn't help that it wasn't until 1:30 that I fell asleep. I tried turning on the TV, snuggling up to Dan, counting sheep...nothing. I am so flippin' tired and there is nothing I can do about it. But, since Dan has to work tonight, I don't want him to be up, since he has to be driving home at midnight. So, I came downstairs and figured I'd update the ol' blog-o.

Friday was eventful. Went to the doctors and Dr. Alt told me that she was going to take me off the Terbutaline on Tuesday (tomorrow!) because I will be 36 weeks. The cerclage is still coming out next Tuesday, which is really exciting. I had a fetal non-stress test (because of my diabetes) and Jake got the hiccups. It was cool to hear him on the monitor, and to actually SEE my contractions, because my strips get sent off wirelessly, I don't see them. She also booked another ultrasound for us on Wednesday to see how big the bean is. Since Lindsey was so humongous (weighing in at 9 lb 12 oz) they are considered how big Jake is. Soooo, growth US it is. My sugars are still really bad, so she put me on medicines to hopefully maintain better sugars. Also have an infection, so got antibodics for that. I'm just so ready for this to be over! Thank GOD I am off bedrest now!!

After the dr appointment, I met my friend Mandy for lunch and that night went to Janna's for a DeMarle at Home party...it's these silicone baking mats...very cool, but I don't know if I would use them often enough. Anywho, so that was fun, and Linds and I didn't get home until almost eleven.

Saturday we went to the market downtown and got some more ravoli, then headed back to Janna's for her daughter Hailey's fourth birthday party. Lindsey was out of sorts and I took her temo and she had a fever, so we went home. I had to run some errands, but then we went home and rested. I did homework and some scrapbooking, Lindsey played with her new My Little Pony and Dan did some work. It was nice to be together doing absolutely nothing.

Yesterday (Sunday) was really weird. I woke up in the am fine, took my meds and monitored (lots of contractions, very bad) and just puttered around the house. I sat at the computer for awhile, and Dan had opened up all the windows in the house, which normally I LOVE because it ets fresh air in here. But I'm sitting at the table and sweat just starts POURING off me. I went in the living room where Dan was, and asked him if he was really hot...because if I'm sweating like that, he must be dying. But he wasn't. At this point, I'm feeling dizzy and shaky, so I grab some lunch and lay down in bed with the fan on me. I fell asleep, and slept for 2 hours or so. Still didn't feel fantastic after the nap, but then I went and took a cool shower, which finally made me feel a little better, after FIVE hours of feeling like poo.

I think it was a bad reaction to one of my meds, but since I take SIX meds at the same time, I don't know which one it is. Hopefully when I take them today, I don't have the same reaction.

Alright, so sitting here for the past fifteen minutes has made me sleepy again, maybe I will just go lay down on the couch and try to fall back asleep...

Thursday, September 25, 2008

So very round...

OK, so the nesting has settled in. I feel like I must clean everything to make room for this lil guy. RIIIIIIGGGGHHHHTTTTTTTTT.

I cleaned out the refridgerator today, cleaned out three closets and did a crapload of laundry. I have to do all Jake's baby clothes tomorrow, as well as his blankies and such so they are ready for him when he finally decides to come. I also did two hours of Spanish homework and one hour of History homework, preparing for tests in the next couple of days.

When did I become responsible?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Seriously now.

What the hell is this medicine doing, if it is not stopping my contractions? I had that back pain all last night, all today...and when I monitored I was contracting every 6 minutes. They gave me 2 doses of meds, and I remonitored and STILL had 6 contractions. I mean, why do I have to go through the pain of sticking myself with needles and everything when the damn medicine isn't doing its freaking job?!

I'm waiting to hear back from my OB nurse to see what they want me to do. I don't want to go to the hospital (especially since Dan has already left for work!) but I guess I'll do what I have to. I can not WAIT for this kid to get out.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


OK, so I have been having a lot of back pain in the past two or three days. Like bad enough that it hurts to sit up, stand up, lounge, lay down, basically anything and everything hurts my back. It doesn't stop when I change positions, it comes and goes...I'm trying to figure out if it is back labor or what.

It isn't better with a heating pad, ice or movement...the pain meds they gave me knock me out so I can only take them at bedtime, and Tylenol ain't touchin' it.


35 weeks!

It really has flown by when you think about it. I mean, I have had a really hard time, but it is almost over. I get off bedrest in another week, get the cerclage out and meds off on the 7th, which is two weeks from now. Then it is anytime after that. I'm starting to nest. I cleaned out the linen closet yesterday. I'm going to go through Lindsey's closet today. I made an apple pie this morning, even though I can't eat it. I'll send it to work with Dan. I just love to bake so much!

I had to monitor this morning, then Jake wasn't moving around a lot so I stayed laying down and keep track of his movements. Jake doesn't like me laying on my left side, so normally he will kick around, but today he wasn't partial to the right side, so he started moving again. He's kind of moving. I think he's just running out of room, because I'm getting sharp jabs of knees and elbows, but no big moves. And he's sitting on a nerve I think. The pain was super bad last night, I even took Tylenol with codeine and laid on a heating pad for awhile...it didn't really help, except that I only woke up once in the night to pee...so the Lortab must have helped out a little :)

Dan will be leaving in a couple of hours for work, then I'm doing a lesson with Lindsey (we're on Lesson 41 of 100!) and then I have to do some Spanish homework. I'm trying to finish with my scrapbooks...I'm getting there with her 4th year. It is my goal to have that one done before the boy gets here...so I'm rushing through! Lindsey is really good about the resting I have to do. She takes such good care of me, but honestly? I can't stay down for way too long...it hurts too badly! For every half hour I am up, I'm down about an hour, but still. If I didn't cook or clean, it wouldn't be done. Gotta deal I guess. At least he's further along so I'm not as worried anymore. I'd still really like to get to 36-37 weeks before he is born. As long as it isn't over 39 weeks then I don't care!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Post-Weekend Wrap-up

Yes, I am still pregnant. It's just that whenever I put my laptop on my lap, my son seems think it is a soccer ball and procedes to kick the crap out of it, so no blogging.

Thursday, we had friends come over to play! Lindsey's best friend Maddy and my best friend Amanda came over for lunch. It was fun. It's been forever since we have seen eachother. Here's a pic of our girls together.

It was a great weekend for the most part. Friday I was a bonehead. All my OB appts are on Fridays, and they messed me up by scheduling me and not telling me that the 18th was Thursday. I mean, I am on bedrest. Dates mean nothing to me. Days of the week I know, because Dan is gone M-F. :) So, when I went in on Friday, I talked to the front desk lady (her name is Julie, and I can't think of a better title for her right now, but she's fantastic!) and told her I would be willing to reschedule (after I dealt with some razzing from her and one of the nurses!) and when she went to talk to the doctor (YAY Dr. Lebel) she came back and said that Dr. Lebel wanted to see me and would fit me in. So that was nice. What was not nice was the three hour wait. The nurse practioner was not there so it was super backed up. Linds did great the first two hours, but started getting antsy and hungry and so we were on eachother's last nerve. However...when we finally got in to see Dr. Lebel, it was great. Baby is measuring BIG. Over two weeks bigger than he should be. Heartbeat was great (140). Showed the doctor the thingies under my arm and they were what I thought they were (yay for self-diagnosing) and there are no worries. The best thing though...after pleading my case, Dr. Lebel told me that she would tie my tubes for me! YAY! She knows my circumstances, and while she agrees that I am young, will do the surgery for me.

Here's a pic of me pregnant at 34 weeks!
Wow I am huge. :)

So after the appt on Friday, my sugars were low after sitting there without food for three hours. *GASP* so Linds and I went and had lunch at Strossners. MMM. And I even treated myself to a white chocolate macadamia nut cookie. Ah, how hard it is to stop at just one. But somehow, I did it. We went home, napped, then I took Lindsey to the Pavillion park so she could run around and play soccer while I did homework at the picnic table. It was fun to watch her run around. Then back home and laying down, as it had been a day of being up a lot.

Saturday we went to the Saturday market downtown. I bought some frozen homemade italian food...ravoli and lasagna...mmm. Good food that is easy to throw together, can't ask for much more. Since we were downtown, we stopped at Falls Park so Linds could run around. Here's some pics.

Dan and Lindsey outside the Peace Center playing games while I took a rest.

Lindsey at Falls Park. Such pretty flowers, and such a pretty girl!

Outside the Westin Poinsett, checking out the fountain.

The rest of the day Saturday was spent at home in bed, as was most of Sunday. We did take Lindsey to Herdklotz Park for about an hour and a half. I sat and watched while Lindsey rode aorund the soccer field on her bike with Dan jogging to keep up with her. Being out in the fresh air was really good for me...and baby too! Dinner was the ravolis I had bought on Saturday...they were AMAZING! Gotta love homemade noodles :)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

I'm so mad at my OB's office!

So, this morning I went on the monitor and I had seven contractions, which constitutes a re-monitor. So I take a demand dose of my Terbutaline pump and then remonitor again, this time with ten contractions. So, my nurse calls my doctor, and they tell me to go to the hospital. Luckily, I had gotten about halfway on my bag packing and was able to rush over there in about fifteen minutes.

OK, so keep in mind that my OB's office TOLD ME to go to the hospital. They knew I had all these contractions because my home nurse called and told them, and faxed them my strip. So I go, get put back on the monitor at the hospital, and wait. And wait. And wait.

My FREAKING doctor didn't show up! She had the nurse check my cervix (closed, as it should be, being as it is stitched closed!) and then says that they just need to increase my contraction threshold to 12 an hour (so, every five minutes).

This is such crap. I mean, I could have kept monitoring at home if that was the case. What is the point of the meds that I am taking if I'm still having contractions? And why would my doctor's office tell me to go to the hospital if they aren't even going to freaking look at me? Give me a break.

Information on Uterine Irritability and Contractions

So, I have this live feed on my blog that shows where people comes from and where they go. I have noticed that I get a lot of Google searches on Uterine Irritabilty and Contractions. I'm still experiencing this, so I figured I'd give more info.

The uterine irritability is frequent but weak contractions. It doesn't normally affect the entire uterus, just different sides. I find that I get crampy when I am experiencing this. It's not pain like contractions, just very uncomfortable. The doctor put me on Procardia to try to stop this. Normally Procardia is a heart medication, but it is also good at relaxing some of the uterine muscles.

Now, the contractions that I have are stronger than that, and as I get further along they are getting stronger. I have backpain sometimes, it starts mid-back and works it's way around my stomach and my stomach hardens up. I compare my contractions to really bad gas bubbles when you're not pregnant to explain these to my non-pregnant friends. I'm on a contraction monitor that I use twice a day for an hour each. Some times when I am feeling particularily bad I monitor for an extra time or two. The monitor then sends the info to nurses up in Balitmore and they tell me how many contractions I have had. Like this morning I had seven, so I have to remonitor for anything over six, as well as take a 0.2 ml demand dose of Terbutaline. If I have six or more the second time, I have to go to the hospital, but this has never happened before. I'm hoping that it won't today!

Hope that kind of gives those who are looking for more information what they were looking for. There's not really a lot of info on irritability, so I'm sharing what I know. :)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Jake's room

This is Jake's crib. I have the bassinet stored in there right now until it is time to bring it downstairs when he gets here!
Dan hung the curtains today, he doens't like them but I do! This is the changing table too.
Dresser with lots of crap on it that still needs to be sorted, and the fantastic fishy swing :) Jake's room from the doorway. Please excuse the rug shampooer...Dan has GOT to do that this weekend!

I love my little boy's room! Lindsey keeps going in there and touching things and saying " I can't WAIT to meet my little brother!" Oh my God it is so sweet. I can't wait for him either!

On another silly note, I have been letting Lindsey watch the delivery stories with my on TLC, so as to answer questions that she has. She is super concerned that he will come out "Cheesy" like the other babies! She's too funny!

Holy Cannoli Batman!

We searched high and low for gas today in Greenville. Apparently the town freaking panicked when Hurricane Ike hit Texas and now Greenville is out of gas. And what gas you can find is super expensive. Coming home from work last night, Dan paid $4.09 a gallon for REGULAR gas! That is insane! So he just put enough $ in to get home, because NORMALLY G-ville is better on gas than in Anderson. And it was, it just took us forever to find a place to get some (FYI---BP on Haywood has gas!) and we paid $3.99 a gallon. My family up in NH is paying $3.54. CRAZY!

We went to Gattitown today to enjoy free carousel rides. Dan and Lindsey had a blast. Unfortunately, I couldn't really partake in the fun, nor the eating of pizza! Argh. I can't wait until this pregnancy is over!

On the pregnancy note, I am 34 weeks today! YAY! However, I feel like this kid is going to fall out any time that I stand up. It's crazy! I only have 2 weeks left on my bedrest (like Gatti was bedrest...lol) but then 3 weeks until the cerclage comes out, and most likely Jakey will come out then too! Let's keep our fingers crossed!

Monday, September 15, 2008

I hate when the weekend ends.

We had such a great weekend! Friday I went to the doctor and they told me some good things, some not so good things. Good: Jake is growing very quickly. My uterus is measuring two weeks ahead of schedule, so our boy is quite big. If we make it that far, we will have an ultrasound at 37 weeks to determine fetal weight (but I hate that it is +/- 2 pounds...gosh they told me Lindsey was probably only going to be 7 pounds!) and we'll decide what to do from there, if I can deliver him vaginally or if I will have to have a c-section. Other good news, I will be able to get off bedrest in TWO WEEKS!!!!!!! YAY! At 36 weeks they think he will be healthy enough that I can go back out among the living. Woot. At 37 weeks they are taking out the cerclage and taking me off the meds (note: they moved THAT back...they think he will come when I'm not on my meds any more) and then if he doesn't come, they will induce me at 38 weeks due to my gestational diabetes. YAY! So not much longer. Two weeks until bedrest is off, three until the medical intervention stops, four if he doesn't come out. So in about four weeks at the latest, I will have a baby!!

We went to Chris and Stephanie's on Friday to say goodbye before they left for Cancun. We are so happy for the two of them!! I can't wait to see pictures of their trip. They are getting married on Friday, then they will be back next Saturday. Poor Dan had to work until 3 am Friday night/Saturday morning...it was 4am by the time he got home!

Saturday we went to Dan's company picnic in Anderson. It was fun. Good food, Dan won a $50 gift card to Target, and Lindsey got a g/c to Target as well. I won bingo for the first time and won $50 to Wal-Mart. Lindsey got her face painted (a fish...and I forgot to take a pic before she washed it off!) and played on the playground and played basketball and water balloon volleyball, which was cute. I was proud of myself, I sat the entire time. The fresh air was wonderful, we were right on Lake Hartwell and the breeze over the water made me homesick for Lake Sunapee. After the picnic we went to Target because they were having a sale on diapers...buy 2, get a $5 gift certificate. I bought Jake some Halloween booties that are mummys and a bib that says "I love my mummy"...hehe. Then to Toys R Us and Lindsey got a minivan for her dollhouse and Dan bought the Pirates trilogy. We went to the Anderson mall and found a "Jake taking home" outfit for our boy, it is cute...a one piece outfit with a hat, bib and booties. It has doggies all over it. Gotta love sales at Sears! Went to the Olive Garden for dinner (mmmm never ending pasta bowl) and then home and watched the Curse of the Black Pearl while Linds played with her new toy.

Sunday (yesterday) was entirely spent in bed. We didn't move, except to get food from downstairs. We watched the other 2 Pirates movies, watched the Colts squeak by the Vikings with a minute left to go...woot...watched the race at NHIS and enjoyed watching Kyle Busch next to last. Dan took a nap, I accidently yanked my pump out AGAIN...I mean what the hell. But this one swelled up and so I had to not stick myself for a little while. So when I did stick myself the second time, I must have hit a bad place because it started squirting blood and I couldn't walk. I'm in tears and there is nothing that Dan can do, and I'm upsetting Linds, so I take it back out and call my nurse, who tells me to ice a different part of my leg and retry. So it took THREE tries to get that damn catheter back in my leg. Grossness. And it hurt like a bitch. But now it is in for five days and I won't have to worry about it for a while.

Today is going to be spent cleaning our bedroom from this weekend in bed. There is trash and water bottles, snacks and such all over the place. I'm monitoring right now, Dan's reading Harry Potter and Linds is being a pain in my butt...what else is new?!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Pictures from Stephanie's bachelorette get-together

Janna was painting a crown for her daughter Hailey's bedroom door. It was cute.

Stephanie decided to paint her cat Molly a food dish. It has a goldfish in it and says "here fishy fishy"...too cute.

I made this piggy bank for Jake. It is very very cute. And the pig has a dark blue spot around one of his eyes :)

After painting pottery, we went to the Melting Pot for dinner. YUM! Even got to have a glass of wine which was very exciting. Swiss cheese fondue, a house salad, coq au vin to cook our meat in, and turtle fondue...mmmm. I enjoyed the marshmellows in the chocolate the most, followed by the shrimp in the coq au vin! I thought I had died and gone to heaven...a pregnant woman's DREAM DINNER!

Wow, Mandy sure looks serious...or a little drunk :) Me, Mandy, Stephanie and Janna. Our waiter was fantastic and we had the BEST time! YAY for bachelorette parties! Still wish we could have found someone to take their clothes off for us though :)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

High on Bleach Fumes

OK, so my husband is a fantastic man. He does what needs to be done, whether it be working at his job, doing side work, playing with Lindsey, keeping me company, whatever. But my GOD the man could live his life with a disgusting bathroom. It's been a couple of weeks since our upstairs bath has been cleaned. Gross. So tonight I took twenty minutes to clean the shower (and no, Stephanie, I did not scrub the tiles, I just sprayed that stuff on it), clean the toilet, wipe the counters and mop the floor. Yech. It was bad. So I went to town and now I am dealing with bleach fumes. But at least I know it is clean the next time that I have to hug the toilet due to this unexpected nausea. WOOT.

This morning was a toughie. My fantastic husband set the alarm for 8:30...but why is it that I am the one that gets up with the alarm when HE sets it? I did all of my lovely testing, then started on some homework waiting for a call, and Kelly (my nurse) calls to tell me that I had eight contractions. Remember, anything over seven constitutes a remonitor. Thankfully, with the demand dose of 0.2 mg of Terbutaline, I was able to get back on track. But dang, if this is what I have to expect for the next couple of weeks, it is going to get old fast.

I tore out my pump catheter TWICE in the past 24 hours. Last night I was rubbing lotion on Linds (it puts the lotion on its skin---LOL) and then she wanted her toes painted, so i wiped my hands on my thighs to be able to open the tiny BonBon bottle, and hit the catheter and it just falls out. Son of a...it effing hurts. BAD. But I didn't wanna restab myself so I coaxed the cath back in and bandaided it. So I stab myself in the other leg this morning after the contractions thinking maybe that not all the meds are going in. No worries. Then I go to climb into bed and take off my pants (just to get comfy, you know!) and my NEW one falls out.

Oh for the love of all that is good.

So, I restab myself. Hopefully it stays in because I don't know how many more site kits I have to last for the next week.

On another note, Lindsey is doing GREAT with her reading. I am using "Teach Your Child to Read in 100 Easy Lessons" and it is working fantastically. She read three sentances that had 19 words today. We learned the "g" sound like in girl. She's also working on addition and subtraction. She's doing a great job with that. I am really enjoying homeschooling her. She misses going to school and being able to play with her friends, but it is so nice to be able to see what my child is learning. She's doing amazingly well. She's very smart and sometimes that scares me. I feel bad because I won't be able to do the same with Jake, but at least I have had this opportunity with Lindsey.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Tuesday Thoughts

We spent an excruciating morning (about 2 1/2 hours) at the car dealership today due to a busted window motor regulator. I'm so sick and tired of bringing my car to the dealership and being treated like shit. They are rude. I am never EVER going to buy another car at Benson Chrysler Dodge Jeep EVER again. I love my Jeep. It makes me happy. But this service department is the WORST I have ever dealt with...and Dan too! And my husband is an auto tech!

Blood sugars have been all over the place today. This am before eating, it was 122 (should have been 60-95) after b-fast it was 135 (should have been less than 120) and after lunch it was 65 (was under 120, but super close to 60 which is not ENOUGH sugar). I give up. It doesn't seem like I am doing anything right. It's aggrivating. How am I supposed to eat ALL these calories when I am eating low-calorie food. It makes absolutely no sense.

I am looking forward to leftover mac and cheese for dinner tonight :) It was super yummy last night. I'm working on spanish homework and also history. It is super hard to deal with classes when all I want to do is sleep. I can't imagine it will be any better once the baby comes.

I'm 33 weeks pregnant today. There's 3 weeks until the cerclage comes out and the meds stop, and 5 weeks until my induction if he decides NOT to come out when these meds stop, but I think he probably will. I just can't WAIT until this is all over!!!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Catching up

So, I haven't blogged since Wednesday, so I guess I better catch up. All has been pretty good, I've lost 7 pounds on my GD diet...which is nice. Dr. isn't too concerned. Jake is growing well and so am I, there aren't a lot of concerns right now. They upped my meds, but that's no biggie. I'm just a little more shaky than normal. :)

Saturday was spent with my girlfriends at Stephanie's get together at Color Clay and the Melting Pot. I'm too lazy to upload pics, but I will do it later. I made a piggy bank for Jake. It's too cute. Then I enjoyed yumminess at the Melting Pot. I hope that I can talk Dan into going before Jakey comes. Lindsey and Daddy spent the entire night playing games and such, Dan even did some cleanup which I thought was really sweet of him.

Sunday Dan went golfing, and Chris locked his keys in the truck, leaving Stephanie to save the day. Dan got sunburnt :) Then we went to Perkins for dinner because I wasn't feeling well. Continued to not feel well so I monitored...I hadn't been really feeling Jake move, so I figured it was the first step. Well, we got sent to labor and delivery. They monitored me for about 45 minutes or so, then we got sent home. Jake's heartbeat was great, and the contractions weren't getting closer together. They gave me an extra dose of meds and home we went.

I did learn however, that I REALLY need to have a bag packed and ready to go. That's on my list of things to do this week! I bought some travel sized shampoos and stuff, that I can just leave in the bag. I also need to have a bag prepared for Lindsey too. It's hard to get everything going smoothly when they want you to go to the hospital ASAP.

Today Linds went to my father in law's while Dan and I went downtown to St. Francis Hospital. I had to see the dietitican so that way we could get things squared away. I got my meal plan, and my glucose meter. The meal plan sucks...how the hell am I supposed to eat 2400 calories?! That is a LOT of food. My sugars are still high, but they are coming down which is good.

Ham, corn and Grammy mac and cheese are on the menu for tonight. I'm craving some comfort food! But dear Lord, I don't know exactly how the heck I am supposed to calculate THAT. :)

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

My Wednesday

So, here's a crazy thing that happened. Big part of it was my fault, but still scary.
So last night after Dan got home (12:30am) I got on my monitor and started recording. I record for an hour at night. I fell asleep to him playing video games, but woke up when the timer went off to signal it was done. But I was super dopey, I had taken a pain pill before laying down because of the back pain. So I stumble into the bathroom (since I'm up, might as well pee, right?) and w/o thinking just pulled down my pajama pants...pulling out my Terbutaline catheter. Ouch. So my leg effing hurts, and I'm asleep, plus, I don't normally have contractions in the nighttime, so...I don't put it back in...I just go to sleep because I don't think that I should be STABBING myself with needles in the middle of the night while I am hardly awake. But i was super nauseous, chalking it up to this catheter being ripped out of my thigh.

Wake up this AM, still nauseous. However, I am running late for my strip (the monitoring strip...dirty thoughts) so I just throw the monitor on, thinking, well, I'll probably have more contractions, but it shouldn't be too bad, and I will just do the meds after I am done.


I get off the monitor, do my catheter and start the meds, and the nurse calls to tell me "You just had TEN contractions". My first reaction was "holy shit". But, at this point, my pulse is too high for them to give me a demand dose, my pulse had jumped up to 130 bpm. So I was told to drink fluids and recheck, then when it had settled I had to take a dose and then remonitor. I only had three after the demand dose, so things settled back down which was really good.

So, to make a long story short, I learned today that my medicine is the only thing keeping me from having this baby right now. Which is scary. I know I was dumb for not replacing the meds right away...but I didn't realize how important these medicines were in keeping my child inside. I feel like a jackass, but...what's done is done, and I can't take it back. I'm glad things settled back down though...that was super scary.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


I am 32 weeks pregnant today! YAY!!!!

Some stress has been taken off, knowing that my son has a very high chance of surviving now if he decides that he wants to come out. And I'm happy because August and its terrible birthstone have passed us by, so it's either a sapphire or a pink tourmaline. (I don't like opals, so I go with the tourmaline!)

When I talked to my nurse from Matria (the home-health care place) I had 4 contractions this morning, not so great, but now that I am further along, they have bumped my threshold of contractions to 7 before having to retest rather than five. Which is exciting. Because 7 contractions is every 8 minutes...I can't believe I am getting that close. This is what I have been waiting for...but it still hasn't hit me yet! I mean, I am going to have a BABY. What the hell was I thinking?!?!

On another note, I have lost three pounds over the weekend with my new gestational diabetes diet. Perhaps it is because of stopping eating crap like Big Macs and Chex Mix...who knows. I think I am having a sugar withdrawal though. Or a sodium withdrawal. I miss soda and chocolate. Badly. But my hope is that I can maintain the diet after the baby is born so that way I can get back to my original fighting weight and not be such a high risk for Type 2 diabetes. I might even be so happy to just get out of bed that I might start working out :)

Lindsey has been throwing temper tantrums when I shut off the TV lately. Like hitting and kicking furniture, throwing her toys, etc. So she has been "grounded" from the TV until Thursday. Gah. This will be fun. She's already getting into things she knows better than to get into and it is only 3pm on Tuesday. Dan's the one who initated this...I know why---he doesn't have to be home to entertain her while she is without TV. I think I am going to have to go back to restricting how much television she watches and what she watches. I hate that I have to do that but she doesn't need to be staring at the boob tube all day. Two hours a day is what I have been told.

I need alcohol.